Road to Recovery-Part Three
As the journey from Oregon to Oklahoma continued and we took a drive down the coastal highway I began to realize who I truly am. My identity of who I am is not defined by what I’ve done or what I do. For so many years I have made several mistakes with some of the mistakes being to the extent that I was sure that I would not make it to heaven or be forgiven. During the trip I realized not only had God already forgiven me but now it was time that I forgive myself. In the first post I wrote I shared how when I looked in the mirror all I could see was someone who was tired and still internally unhappy. For me the unhappiness came from the unforgiveness and the guilt that followed with the mistakes and decisions I had made in life. Once I released the guilt and unforgiveness I was able to also let go of the fear of what might happen in my life if I just let everything go and allow God to have full control. I learned my identity and who I am is not in the sickness that I dealt with for years nor in the funeral home or what I do. My identity is in God and who He created me to be. The sickness was just part of my journey in where God is leading me. What I do at the funeral home is truly just my assignment from God right now in this particular season of my life. In which I have to admit I truly enjoy the opportunity to meet new people and celebrate lives in a unique way. I came to the realization that if I were to wake up and everything I had was gone I would now have the ability to be happy in knowing that everything that I truly need and desire comes from God. It doesn’t come from any other source. I learned the importance of having a vision and keeping a good balance in your life as you travel towards the destiny in where God is leading you. Life is a wonderful journey and it’s a journey that should be enjoyed while we are here. I believe we should approach each day with the anticipation of something spectacular is going to take place and be positive in each situation. Sometimes our life journey can become difficult and often feel like were traveling in the dessert but if we keep our focus on the vision in which God has placed in our heart we will continue to see the path He is taking us on.
Love, Anita J. Shipman